I DID IT!!! I actually freaking did it! I ran 42km last Saturday for the first time in my entire life! My legs ran me all that distance, all the way! I still cannot believe I actually did it. I remember when I was a little girl, watching a marathon thinking OMG how could people actually run that distance. Never in a million years would I have believed that I could have done that too.
The mind is a very powerful thing.
Let me take you back to what I was like over a decade ago. I did not like myself a great deal. I had developed a very poor body image when I was younger. You know what it’s like comparing yourself to all the other girls at school and usually really unfavourably too? Well that was me! And my eating disorder crept up on me, and at one point in my life I was throwing up 20 times a day. Not the nicest way to treat yourself. I guess I didn’t know any other way of being after a while. Of course it had a huge impact on my mental health, and as much as I put a smile on my face, inside I felt heavy and a lot of the time sad. I hated my body, I hated me. I just felt like I wasn’t good enough. So I guess I found a good way to punish myself. As you can imagine my energy levels were pretty low a lot of the time so exercise was pretty non existent in my life.
Then I discovered Powerhoop a few years ago. My counsellor at the time had suggested that I try some exercise. He said it would make me feel good. I had no idea the link between mental health and exercise at that point. So I tried it, and fell in love with this particular form of exercise. So much so I became an instructor. Then I brought this to New Zealand!
Starting with an exercise I loved meant I would keep doing it and the more I did it, the more my confidence grew. My body became stronger and so did my mind. I started to feel better about myself and I guess I stopped hating myself as much. My eating gradually improved and I started to eat for health and wellbeing as opposed to punishment.
The years since I have been Powerhooping, and have grown my business meant I have done a lot of Personal Development too. I have had to grow myself in order to grow my business. I really began to start believing in myself and I would take lots of little steps out of my comfort zone. Each time I stepped out my comfort zone, I would feel a little more confident. So I would start to set myself little challenges along the way.
Earlier this year I started a Happy 100 list. I decided this ye